I've been a bit MIA and for good reason! The a week ago last Tuesday while changing my now 5 month old little girl I felt a lump near the base of her spine. I took her to the doctor just to have it checked.... the three words that came out of his mouth shook me to the core "Spina Bifida Occulta."
Now, when I hear the words spina bifid I automatically think a debilitating condition that would effect my daughter the rest of her life. The doctor told me I would need to have an ultrasound done on her spine to determine the severity!
I made it out the door, half way to my car and started weeping! I was so afraid, so unsure of what all of this meant, and could mean for us!
I spent the next 3 days on the phone with the insurance company trying to figure out a place to have the scan done. Two days later I called again and was given an appointment at the children's hospital in Nashville, TN.
In the mean time I took my baby girl to me to Bible study (Minivan Mayhem) and shared the news with my group. I asked whomever felt led to come forward and lay hands on my daughter and pray!
About a dozen moms came forward to pray!
The Bible tells us to pray specifically! So that is what I did! I prayed that when her spine was examined there would be nothing found! I had to be strong. I had to trust that God Himself had not only me, but my whole family in His grip of grace! I had to lay her on the altar once again and give her over to Him! So I did! I had such an amazing sense of peace in my heart. Knowing that no matter what the diagnosis was, that it was going to be ok. Romans 8:28 says that God uses ALL things for good for those that love Him. Not just the good times, the times of rejoicing and peace, but also in the midst of the storm when we are so afflicted, confused and hurt that we can't seem to find solid ground to stand on!
Then came the day for the appointment for the ultrasound!
My neighbor graciously went with me and we had the scan done (she cried through the whole thing)!
The next day I scheduled an appointment with her doctor to give us the results. I received a call from his office that day telling me that they did not have the results yet and it would be awhile before they did. More waiting!
Finally the phone rang! The lady on the other end told me that the scan showed NO ABNORMALITIES!!! My baby girl had been healed!
I have seen God work in my life, and in the lives of those around me these last two weeks like never before!
I stand in awe of Him!!
~Mama of the Littles~